Just got back from a week's holiday in Devon, living it up with 16 friends in a gorgeous Art Deco villa near Plymouth. Messing about in boats, dressing for dinner and generally having a lovely time.
Check this out for a view just wandering down the road - felt weirdly like being in the Mediterranean...
Managed to forget about things for a couple of days almost completely, but also had a couple of moping attacks when I couldn't keep up with walkers or had to go to bed early cos I was tired or couldn't finish that last glass of champagne cos I knew I'd feel shitty the following day. 95% great though :D
Back now though, and back to the grind of getting things done and finding out what's happening next. My lovely friend J has been in for a cystoscopy (yowch) and a kidney biopsy, they're definitely being thorough! She's also been to see a psychologist, who now wants to see me as well so we can be checked to make sure I'm not paying her and she's not hero-worshipping me or anything. Which is odd, but fine I spose!
I've got another set of blood tests and follow up appointment this coming Monday, along with an appointment with a surgeon to talk about getting a fistula created in my arm. In a way, I'm quite looking forward to it cos it feels like progress, but in another I'm petrified, cos to be honest I've been pootling along quite happily the last few weeks and upsetting the status quo seems so bloody unnecessary. But then I read things like Big Buzzard's blog, which give me such hope of how I might feel when it's all done. Does feel like rather a lot of pressure. I mean, what if this is just me and I don't feel any different afterwards?! What a waste of time for J if that's the case!
My lovely boy is still being lovely. :) His stoicism is both a blessing and an irritation depending on my mood, but overall I wouldn't change a thing. Now we're both back home we've still got a load of DIY n stuff to get done. Gonna chill today and have a last day's holiday, then tomorrow do some painting n sorting out, I'd say! SO much to do....

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